I was sick for a couple of weeks, a few weeks back. Even after I felt “healthy” it has taken some time to feel like I’m myself. I had a hard time concentrating on anything for more than 12-20 minutes at a time and was very easily distracted. At the time, this didn’t really bother me. Given everything else that’s happening in the world, I cut myself some slack.
Starting late last week, I found myself more easily frustrated. For the first time in a long time, I was finally able to concentrate and think at a level that felt right. However, distractions still abound. We’re all still getting used to spending every hour of every day with our family. Distractions that break my flow are frustrating me.
I don’t want to be frustrated with my family. They don’t mean to do it. But again, I’m going to cut myself some slack. I think this frustration that I’m feeling is actually good. It means I’m truly starting to get my brain back to where I want and expect it. As it gets stronger, I’ll be able to deal with the distractions better.
In the meantime, I’m going to try to produce something every day*. Whether it’s a short post like this, or a daily web comic strip, just something. Anything.
Yesterday, I dug up some old emails/slack threads about the postmortem I did on my first baseball model. I have some posts that I’ve been drafting for a while I’ll finish and publish. Like most of my posts, I probably won’t be happy with them and may intend to come back and revise later. Like most of my posts, I probably won’t actually do it.
There are some specific topics I want to write about, but don’t feel like I have the capacity to write them as well as I think they deserve. So, I’ve stubbed them out in draft state and will come back to them when I’m more confident.
*I’ll probably publish most week days. May not do so one weekends.